Reading

I have recently finished reading Stephen Nachmanovitch's, 'Free Play'.
It was during rehearsals for 'The Interview' that I began reading this book and have been dipping into throughout my summer at Edinburgh and travelling with my boyfriend.

A great thought provoking book on mystic creativity and different cultures understandings of creativity.

In the concluding chapter Nachmanovitch tells how:

"Beyond the drive to create is yet a deeper level of commitment a state of union with a whole that is beyond us...
Creativity is a recursive process, invovling interactive, interlopping circuits of control and nourishment between organism and enviroment. if the organism is like us conscious it may feel that it is the tool (or even the victim) of some big mysterious force. but there is no force there is the interconnectedness of the big system, Gaia."
For Nachmanovitch once the artist has surpassed creating art for arts sake there is, "Acting from love."
I'd like to say I very much agree with Nachmanovitch on this notion, from my experiences of working closely with other actors in close physical ensembles, bouncing off other actors in workshop enviroments and working with other dancers. There is a great sense interconnectedness when a common goal and empathy is shared between a group of creative people working together.

The Interview

Just a very breif update on this.

This was not a pleasant experience, it started amazingly, I really enjoyed working with other actors, being an actor rather than a children's drama teacher, felt like a dream was coming true. I admired the people I was working with and had hope that the play would be a success, that it would tour England and who knew further.
Cast members began dropping out and we were getting closer to performance.
Performance came, we had been promised a UK tour, this didn't come to pass, in the end it was three performances at the Bradford playhouse.
I did not enjoy the performances, didn't seem to be the same play we were rehearsing. I found it stressful and upsetting, but refused to leave because I wanted to see the project through to the end. I had dedicated so much time to the project and had at one point had so much faith in it.
Jason was very adamant that I was better than my agent, but at this point, he has very much upset me and has been unable to pay me for work presented, my agent is still trying to help me through equity receive payment which is due, even though time taken her isn't worth the amount she will be paid. I have much respect for Mel in doing this.
I cannot wait for the full stop on this, I'm upset and looking forward to future projects so I can put this behind me.